God is good!

Aug 8th~ Today is my grandma Casey and my nephew Aaron's birthdays!! Happy birthday to them!
I went to the doctor today and Dr Panares gave us (me, Jon and Susie) some encouraging news!! He said my hemoglobin is rising in numbers!! I am still anemic, but this is a sign that the tumors are shrinking!!! PRAISE THE LORD! Please keep praying, because it is working. He also scheduled my CT scan for the 22nd. I will go in at 11:30am, 2 hours before the procedure, drink some radioactive stuff out of a lead container, and then get the scan done. It will show all the cancer and let us know if the chemo is working. I keep getting asked if I will have a break from Chemo. The answer is no! As of now, there is no end in sight. We will continue chemo until the Lord delivers me from this disease! Another question I get is about surgery. The dr does not want me having surgery because there is a chance of spreading the cancer when you mess with it. The other question I get a lot is about radiation. Radiation is for a specific spot. If I had 1 tumor, they would probably do radiation. But I have multiple tumors and the cancer is splattered in my lungs and liver, so this would not work! After the doctors appointment, Dave, came over and talked with me and prayed with me and my mom. This is such a blessing!! After he leaves, I feel a weight lifted off of me. He reminds me that the devil is a liar and will try anything to make me think I am not going to watch my babies grow into adults! That is all I want! I am not scared of dying, I just can't IMAGINE leaving my kids motherless! They do not deserve that! Boy that Satan can really get your mind going sometimes though!
Aug 9th~ Today was Chemo. It really kicked my butt today! I am exhausted! My legs are already achy, so I am hoping Jon will let me skip tonight's walk. But I doubt it, he has already mentioned it 2 times! I love walking with him. It is so peaceful and quiet and we just talk about nothing and everything! Then we come in and he reads the Bible aloud to me in bed. We have really become a lot closer lately. I know this is taking a huge toll on him, on all of us really. But this is bringing up memories of losing his mom. I keep reminding him that she was ready to go home to be with Christ. I know that Christ has more for me to do on this earth. This is just another bump in what has been a VERY bumpy road, that we have call our life! We have been through so much, losing his mom, my mom and her nuerofibromitosis, a miscarriage, losing our home, a surprise pregnancy at a very inopportune time in our lives and now cancer! What doesn't kill us, makes us stronger, right? Any ways, I got off track! Shocking, I know!! LOL!
During my treatment today, Dr. Panares walked into my private room (yes!!! I got the private room again!! (: ) He told us he had more good news! another test he does with the blood work (I am not sure what it is and if anyone out there knows, please comment! I think it has something to do with cancer proteins? I don't know) I was too out of it to ask what exactly the test was, but he said the numbers were going down and that is another sign that the cancer is shrinking!!!! Jon and I were very excited to hear this! He told us to have fun on our vacation and that he would see us when we got back!
Please pray that this time after Chemo would go as smoothly if not more smoothly than last time! We are leaving for vacation on soon and I want to be strong and over any kind of sickness by then! Please pray for Jon and my spirits, to keep the devil from playing mind tricks with us! We love you all very much and thank you so much for all your support!