Sept 6th~ Today I had my regular doctor appt with the oncologist physicians assistant. It was pretty routine except they let me know I would not be going on the extra chemo drug, Avastan (I think this is the spelling), like they wanted me to. This drug would cause extra bleeding, like nose bleeds and things like that. But, they told me that my tumors were too fragile and would end up bleeding too much. I was torn by this, because I have heard this is the chemo that is a "wonder drug" as the PA described it. But, I am sick of chemo already and don't want more drugs running through me. Already, as soon as I get my chemo out, I am dreading the next time. They said this was normal, but sometimes I actually get sick to my stomach thinking about it. So please pray for God's will to be done with the Avastan. If it will heal me, pray my tumors toughen up!!!! I just want to be healed so badly and back to my regular life with my husband and kids. When I got home, my family friend Dave, came to uplift me and pray with me as he does every Monday before chemo! It feels good to get recharged by prayer and the word before I sit in the chair for hours having poison pumped into me.
Sept 7th~ It was chemo day. They added more Benedryl and Steroids to my cocktail because my tongue was going numb after chemo and I was feeling sick during the last 30 minutes of chemo. So I ended up conking out during chemo from the Benedryl. I felt weird after it was over, just worn out, like I needed to lay down for a couple of days! I got leg cramps that night and really whiny! YES!! I get very emotional after chemo, sometimes for days! LOL!! Sometimes, I want to stamp my feet and cry and say, "WHY ME??" But usually just Jon sees that side of me!
Sept 9th~ nothing new today! Just got my chemo out and went shopping afterward! I feel so free when I get my chemo out! But, for some reason, I am still feeling a little off from chemo. It took me until today (september 13th) to write this post because I am just feeling weird from chemo still! I can function, but I am not feeling normal. I just can't get comfortable. I have not been sleeping well either! I think it all goes together!
Keep me and my family in your prayers as always! God will heal me! Just in His time, not mine! If it were my time, I would be healed already! LOL!!
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