Well, I am finally back on my feet after a few road blocks! I will try to quickly update the past month and a half for everyone!
Nov 6th~ It was a Sunday and I wasn't feeling well when I woke up. Jon and I decided to stay home from church. I had this weird pain above my belly button. Not as bad as when my colon ruptured, but I couldn't really think of anything else but the pain. I had myself convinced it was an infection. My parents and the kids came home from church and I made up my mind. I was only home for 2 weeks, but I had to go back to the ER and get checked out! So, Jon, my mom and I jumped in the car and headed out. When we got to the ER, my friend Susie met us there. We were called back fairly quickly. They put me straight into a bed and then ordered me pain meds. After they got my port accessed and IV going, they sent me to do a ct scan! I KNOW I KNOW!!! I have had a million of these things now!! While I am getting the scan done, Susie calls my surgeon, Dr D, to let him know what was going on and so he could keep an eye on me. So, I get back from the scan and I am sure that they are going to pump me with antibiotics and send me on my merry way... WRONG!!!!! The doctor comes in and tells me that I have a small intestinal blockage! OK??? What does that mean. Well, it means that somewhere in my small intestines, there is scar tissue or a kink that is preventing waste to pass normally. The doctor informs me that I will be in the hospital another 4 to 5 days!!! I just broke down right there!! Are you serious? I JUST started feeling normal at home and this happens!
So, for some reason, this was very painful and the meds weren't working as well as I felt they should be. I was never really comfortable while I was in there. Then there was the tube down my nose that I refused. I didn't quite understand what it was for so I refused it! They told me putting it in would be the most uncomfortable 5 minutes of my life. But it was up to me. Well, why would I put myself through that right? Little did I know what it was for. I suddenly started vomiting. Well if the waste can't go down the way it is supposed to, it has to go up and out the other way!! YUCK!!! I swear the things I have gone through in my life is unbelievable!!
Nov 10th~Finally they are talking about releasing me. I for sure wanted me to be out before my birthday which was on the 14th. As the day goes on, I start feeling sick again! Not really eating anything, just chalked it up to nerves about leaving the hospital. Well, dr D has me released that night at 7:30pm. I get packed up and ready to go, when I start throwing up again. They released me anyways!!
Nov 14th~I had a dr appt with Dr. P anares on Monday, my birthday. The entire weekend I did nothing but throw up. Got to his office and he gave me a pill called Reglan. It worked like a charm!! I could eat again!! It also helps with my bowels situation too. I know TMI!! LOL!! I am sorry but there is nothing girly about me anymore. I am wearing stretching- yoga type pants everyday because of my colostomy bag. I don't even bother with doing my hair or makeup either, what's the freaking point?
The rest of the week, I was trying to get my strength back and trying to get my life back in order. Then this happens....
Nov 20th~ It was a Sunday, STILL HAVE NOT BEEN BACK TO CHURCH YET BECAUSE THE ENEMY IS TRYING TO KEEP ME DOWN!! I am in pain ON my belly right above the pubic bone, on my actual incision site. It doesn't itch, but it is red and irritated and hard, not soft like my belly normally is. So we call the surgeon at home and he tells us to do warm, wet compresses because it sounds like an infection. My pastors wife came to visit and she is a nurse so I have her check it out. She agrees that it looks like an infection and if I end up getting a temp, I need to go to the ER!! I automatically cry and just think, I can not go back there! NO WAY!! So what happens? I end up spiking a temp of 102.5 at 1am. Instead of going to the ER we decide to just call dr d and let him know what was going on and get his opinion. He said just meet him in his office tomorrow morning and we will be ok.
Nov 21st~ We go to Dr D's office and we get called back. He tells us I have 3 choices. #1 He can cut open a little bit of my incision and drain it that way and take 10 days of antibiotics. #2 He can lance me open a little bid and drain it that way and take the antibiotics or #3 He can leave it alone and I continue to do the warm compressions and hopefully it will drain on its own and take antibiotics. So of course, scaredy cat me chooses door #3!!!!
Nov 22nd~ When I woke up this morning, I looked down and I was laying in a puddle of nasty. I woke Jon up to help me and I got out of bed. I started taking off my pants while he was getting a hand towel to stop the bleeding (or whatever it was) I take them off and out of my stomach I am POURING liquid out of me. I thought I would just be oozing stuff. NO! This was streaming out of me like you wouldn't believe. It got everywhere! Finally Jon came with towels and we tried to drain as much as possible. Jon dressed the wound and we were constantly changing bandages. The draining lasted almost a full week. It actually stopped, then something else came up.....
Nov 24th~ Today was Thanksgiving and I got out of the house for the first time (besides dr appts, or the hospital) We went to Shayla and Eddy's house! It was beautiful and then we stopped by Chris and Angies for a little bit. It was a good day. I felt semi normal again!
Nov 26th~ The day started out great, we were rearranging the house so we could put the Christmas tree up and decorate the house. I was feeling great, still weak and easily tired, but really good. Later that night my best friend, Krista, came over with her family. We hung out, ate pizza and drank Starbucks. Around 10pm it hit me! The stomach flu!!! It was horrible!! I had it coming from both ends. I was up all night! Constantly changing my bag or throwing up. The next morning Jon called the on call dr and they said that I better stay well hydrated or this all could end up in another intestinal blockage!!!! So I tried my best to keep the water down and I did it! No blockage!!
Nov 27th~ Here it is! Another Sunday that I can't go to church! Still so sick. I start feeling better around Monday or Tuesday.
Nov 28th~ ONE OF THE SADDEST DAYS OF MY LIFE!! After 8 weeks of taking care of me hand and foot and being by my side through even the grossest of gross, being there when I crashed in CCU, spending every single night with me in and out of the hospital, changing my ostomy bags, bathing me like a child again.... (the list really could go on) MY JON HAD TO GO BACK TO WORK!!!! Thankfully, it seems I am on the up and up again. I start feeling really good!!!
Dec 4th~ I FINALLY GET TO GO BACK TO CHURCH!!! It feels wonderful to be back with my church family!
Dec 5th~ Today I had an appt with Dr Panares my oncologist! He gave me the all clear to go back to chemo. I am so scared that the side effects are going to be as bad as when I first had it. I had everyone I know praying for me.
Dec 6th~ Jon couldn't get out of work to take me to chemo. Luckily my friend, Susie, took me. I don't know what I would do without her! She even got to see Zombie Christi, I turned a grey color and have red underneath my eyes! I look really weird on chemo.
Dec 10th~ Tonight is Jonny's 10th birthday party. I kept it small, but it was fun. I did pretty good, especially since I didn't take any pills!! I also drove for the first time tonight! I was scared, but I did it!! Slowly but surely I am getting back to me!
So that about catches you up to everything! I will try not to let it go this long anymore, but for a while there, I never thought I was going to be somewhat normal, I just thought I would just keep back sliding! I am so thankful to God for pulling me through this. I am looking and waiting for what my lesson is in all of this. As always, KEEP PRAYING, GOD IS LISTENING TO OUR CRIES!!!
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Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Sunday, October 30, 2011
WHERE DO I START?
Remember that surgery the dr wanted me to have? Well, it happened sooner than later! It was a regular chemo week and I had finished my round of chemo at home.
October 6th, As usual, my friend Susie, took me to get the chemo removed from me. We got home around 1pm and I started getting these weird pains right above my belly button. Well, I didn't want to freak the kids out, so I tried to manage my day like normal. It kept getting worse, but like always, I was in denial!!! Finally, after the kids went to bed, I couldn't handle it anymore. Jon called the oncologist oncall that night. He said it sounded like an infection and sent over a prescription of antibiotics over the phone. He said if the pain got worse, to call him in the morning. I took the antibiotics and 2 hours later, I couldn't handle the pain anymore. We called the dr back and he said to go to the ER. If you know me, you know it takes being on my death bed to go to the dr, let alone the ER!! I hung up the phone and kept contemplating whether to go in or not. All of the sudden, I feel/hear a pop!!! My dad even heard it! That was it, off to the ER we went. We got there around 1am.
They took me straight back, I was in so much pain. They started sticking me in different places, drawing blood trying to figure out where the infection was coming from. They were also pumping me full of pain killers, which were not working! Then, they sent me for a ct scan. All I kept thinking all night was how much all this was going to cost us. I didn't want to do a ct scan knowing how much out of pocket it was going to cost us! I know, I am crazy! So I get back from the scan and they want me to give them a urine sample, to find out where this infection was coming from. I finally get the energy to get up out of bed to go to the bathroom and the dr grabbed my arm. I turned to him and he looks at me and says, "Your colon has ruptured! I have already called the surgeon on call and he will be here in a couple hours. You are having surgery today! Do you understand what I am saying to you?" I just nodded! I was numb. I came in for an infection! Needless to say, my ER trips never end up fun!! The first time, CANCER!! Now, I am near death with a blown out colon!! Jon and I went into the bathroom and he helps me, I can't even cry! We just pray. I walk back to my bed and tell my mom what the dr said and she said she already over heard him. Right then, we started making phone calls. Susie and my sister show up and stay with me.
A couple hours later, the surgeon, Dr. Daskalakis (we call him Dr. D) comes in and is very grim. Remember how my oncologist said he sent my ct scan to different surgeons to get this surgery done before this happens? Well, Dr D was one of the surgeons who was sent the scan. Guess what? He had already denied doing the surgery because he said my ct scan was a mess and he didn't think surgery was going to help me. So pretty much I thought he was going to open me up and close me right back up. He said the best to hope for was that he was going to close up the hole that was my colon! Not to mention, I hadn't had a "movement" in days, so he was expecting stool everywhere and I would be getting VERY sick from it. You know me, when I am getting any sort of bad news, I tune it out. I don't mean to, but its just what I do.
After he left, I had all my closest friends and family with me. I was doped up on a million pain killers and I believed this was it and I was not even going to get to kiss my babies good bye. I couldn't think straight, but I knew I had to write them letters. I was so high, I couldn't get the right words out. Thankfully my best friend, Krista, was there. She and Susie tried to make something out of the gibberish I was writing. At this point, I had about 6 hours until surgery. My mind was swimming and the time passed so quickly.
October 7th, 12:00pm, Time for surgery. It came so fast, I couldn't stress or cry about it. I said my goodbyes and stayed strong. I just kept praying for everything to turn out and for me to live to see my kids again. I AM NOT READY TO DIE AND LEAVE THEM!! They are too young to lose their mom. I was wheeled into surgery, they put a mask on me and told me to breathe deeply. That's the last thing I remember.
I don't know what time it was, but I woke up and tried to pull the tube out of my throat so I could breathe. The nurse yelled to someone else and the next thing I know, my arms are tied to the bed and I can't move them. The nurse told me to calm down and they will take the tube out soon. That was the most horrifying and scary feeling ever!!
I finally get wheeled out of recovery and I was told that the surgery went better than expected! GOD IS IN CONTROL ALWAYS!! I don't know why I ever think any different!! What was supposed to be a couple hour surgery took barely over an hour!! He said everything looked perfect, he fixed the colon, put in a colostomy bag (BOO!!) and he said he removed the ovaries that were filled with cancer, because they were just "flopping around in there"! He said my abdominal wall kept all the stool in 1 place, so he just scooped it out. Pretty, I know! So, instead of a band aid surgery, he performed the surgery that my Oncologist had asked him to do and he said was impossible!! I was put on 2 different antibiotics to make sure I did not get sick from the stool in my body.
I was on the road to recovery!! Up and walking around, learning about my new, permanent, colostomy bag and how to live with it. Then, I hit a road block!!
October 11th, I was doing so well, telling everyone about the miracle God performed on me! Which, it is the biggest miracle so far! When all of the sudden, I started not feeling right. I had to go to the bathroom and kept calling for my nurse who for some reason was ignoring me. My cousins, aunt and mom were there with me. My cousin, David, went to get my nurse 2 times before she finally came. By the time she got to me, I had this horrible pain in my bladder that lasted for a couple seconds. I was seeing stars!! The next thing I knew there were about 10 nurses in my room and the hospital Chaplin was praying over me. I still can't tell you what was wrong with me. They sent me to the Critical Care Unit. The next thing I remember, I was getting 4 bags of blood, 2 bags of platelets and a bag of plasma. They said they thought that I had internal bleeding and they would have to go back in and fix it!!! WHAT?? Another surgery!?? No way! I couldn't do it!! So off they sent me to the ct scan...again!
Again, God preformed a miracle! NO internal bleeding. They still don't know what caused it, but I didn't need another surgery! PRAISE THE LORD!!! I stayed in CCU for 2 days then went back up to the 5th floor for the remainder of my stay.
So, things seemed to be getting back to normal, when one of the Ostomy nurses (they teach me how to take care of my new friend, the colostomy bag) tells me that my Stoma (the part of the intestine that empties into my bag) is not healing correctly and is actually receding! OF COURSE, BECAUSE NOTHING CAN GO SMOOTHLY FOR ME!!! So we talk to the surgeon, Dr D, and he said, "If we can get the Stoma to hang in there for 2 months and there is no new cancer in me, I will go back in and hook you up the regular way and get rid of the bag!" Which has me so happy on one hand that I won't have the bag any more, but then again, I am not looking forward to another surgery in 2 months. But it is in God's hands and I am learning daily to trust Him more and more!
Finally, after 12 (almost 13) days of being in the hospital, I get released!! I am scared to death!! I don't feel ready to not have nurses by my side 24/7! What if something happens? But my family and kids need me home.
Home life, I am getting used to it. I am healing slower than I thought I would! I finally got my staples out on October 27th. I am still scared to death about everything, but its getting better! So, as it stands, I need my stoma to stabilize, no new cancer growth, get my JP drain out and to gain all my strength back.
I am going to wrap this up because it is late and I wrote a novel! LOL!! As always, keep praying, God IS listening!! Love you all and thank you so much for all your prayers!
October 6th, As usual, my friend Susie, took me to get the chemo removed from me. We got home around 1pm and I started getting these weird pains right above my belly button. Well, I didn't want to freak the kids out, so I tried to manage my day like normal. It kept getting worse, but like always, I was in denial!!! Finally, after the kids went to bed, I couldn't handle it anymore. Jon called the oncologist oncall that night. He said it sounded like an infection and sent over a prescription of antibiotics over the phone. He said if the pain got worse, to call him in the morning. I took the antibiotics and 2 hours later, I couldn't handle the pain anymore. We called the dr back and he said to go to the ER. If you know me, you know it takes being on my death bed to go to the dr, let alone the ER!! I hung up the phone and kept contemplating whether to go in or not. All of the sudden, I feel/hear a pop!!! My dad even heard it! That was it, off to the ER we went. We got there around 1am.
They took me straight back, I was in so much pain. They started sticking me in different places, drawing blood trying to figure out where the infection was coming from. They were also pumping me full of pain killers, which were not working! Then, they sent me for a ct scan. All I kept thinking all night was how much all this was going to cost us. I didn't want to do a ct scan knowing how much out of pocket it was going to cost us! I know, I am crazy! So I get back from the scan and they want me to give them a urine sample, to find out where this infection was coming from. I finally get the energy to get up out of bed to go to the bathroom and the dr grabbed my arm. I turned to him and he looks at me and says, "Your colon has ruptured! I have already called the surgeon on call and he will be here in a couple hours. You are having surgery today! Do you understand what I am saying to you?" I just nodded! I was numb. I came in for an infection! Needless to say, my ER trips never end up fun!! The first time, CANCER!! Now, I am near death with a blown out colon!! Jon and I went into the bathroom and he helps me, I can't even cry! We just pray. I walk back to my bed and tell my mom what the dr said and she said she already over heard him. Right then, we started making phone calls. Susie and my sister show up and stay with me.
A couple hours later, the surgeon, Dr. Daskalakis (we call him Dr. D) comes in and is very grim. Remember how my oncologist said he sent my ct scan to different surgeons to get this surgery done before this happens? Well, Dr D was one of the surgeons who was sent the scan. Guess what? He had already denied doing the surgery because he said my ct scan was a mess and he didn't think surgery was going to help me. So pretty much I thought he was going to open me up and close me right back up. He said the best to hope for was that he was going to close up the hole that was my colon! Not to mention, I hadn't had a "movement" in days, so he was expecting stool everywhere and I would be getting VERY sick from it. You know me, when I am getting any sort of bad news, I tune it out. I don't mean to, but its just what I do.
After he left, I had all my closest friends and family with me. I was doped up on a million pain killers and I believed this was it and I was not even going to get to kiss my babies good bye. I couldn't think straight, but I knew I had to write them letters. I was so high, I couldn't get the right words out. Thankfully my best friend, Krista, was there. She and Susie tried to make something out of the gibberish I was writing. At this point, I had about 6 hours until surgery. My mind was swimming and the time passed so quickly.
October 7th, 12:00pm, Time for surgery. It came so fast, I couldn't stress or cry about it. I said my goodbyes and stayed strong. I just kept praying for everything to turn out and for me to live to see my kids again. I AM NOT READY TO DIE AND LEAVE THEM!! They are too young to lose their mom. I was wheeled into surgery, they put a mask on me and told me to breathe deeply. That's the last thing I remember.
I don't know what time it was, but I woke up and tried to pull the tube out of my throat so I could breathe. The nurse yelled to someone else and the next thing I know, my arms are tied to the bed and I can't move them. The nurse told me to calm down and they will take the tube out soon. That was the most horrifying and scary feeling ever!!
I finally get wheeled out of recovery and I was told that the surgery went better than expected! GOD IS IN CONTROL ALWAYS!! I don't know why I ever think any different!! What was supposed to be a couple hour surgery took barely over an hour!! He said everything looked perfect, he fixed the colon, put in a colostomy bag (BOO!!) and he said he removed the ovaries that were filled with cancer, because they were just "flopping around in there"! He said my abdominal wall kept all the stool in 1 place, so he just scooped it out. Pretty, I know! So, instead of a band aid surgery, he performed the surgery that my Oncologist had asked him to do and he said was impossible!! I was put on 2 different antibiotics to make sure I did not get sick from the stool in my body.
I was on the road to recovery!! Up and walking around, learning about my new, permanent, colostomy bag and how to live with it. Then, I hit a road block!!
October 11th, I was doing so well, telling everyone about the miracle God performed on me! Which, it is the biggest miracle so far! When all of the sudden, I started not feeling right. I had to go to the bathroom and kept calling for my nurse who for some reason was ignoring me. My cousins, aunt and mom were there with me. My cousin, David, went to get my nurse 2 times before she finally came. By the time she got to me, I had this horrible pain in my bladder that lasted for a couple seconds. I was seeing stars!! The next thing I knew there were about 10 nurses in my room and the hospital Chaplin was praying over me. I still can't tell you what was wrong with me. They sent me to the Critical Care Unit. The next thing I remember, I was getting 4 bags of blood, 2 bags of platelets and a bag of plasma. They said they thought that I had internal bleeding and they would have to go back in and fix it!!! WHAT?? Another surgery!?? No way! I couldn't do it!! So off they sent me to the ct scan...again!
Again, God preformed a miracle! NO internal bleeding. They still don't know what caused it, but I didn't need another surgery! PRAISE THE LORD!!! I stayed in CCU for 2 days then went back up to the 5th floor for the remainder of my stay.
So, things seemed to be getting back to normal, when one of the Ostomy nurses (they teach me how to take care of my new friend, the colostomy bag) tells me that my Stoma (the part of the intestine that empties into my bag) is not healing correctly and is actually receding! OF COURSE, BECAUSE NOTHING CAN GO SMOOTHLY FOR ME!!! So we talk to the surgeon, Dr D, and he said, "If we can get the Stoma to hang in there for 2 months and there is no new cancer in me, I will go back in and hook you up the regular way and get rid of the bag!" Which has me so happy on one hand that I won't have the bag any more, but then again, I am not looking forward to another surgery in 2 months. But it is in God's hands and I am learning daily to trust Him more and more!
Finally, after 12 (almost 13) days of being in the hospital, I get released!! I am scared to death!! I don't feel ready to not have nurses by my side 24/7! What if something happens? But my family and kids need me home.
Home life, I am getting used to it. I am healing slower than I thought I would! I finally got my staples out on October 27th. I am still scared to death about everything, but its getting better! So, as it stands, I need my stoma to stabilize, no new cancer growth, get my JP drain out and to gain all my strength back.
I am going to wrap this up because it is late and I wrote a novel! LOL!! As always, keep praying, God IS listening!! Love you all and thank you so much for all your prayers!
Monday, October 3, 2011
Dr appt today
Today was my appointment with my Oncologist. I think I mentioned before that he said I will be having surgery in the future. Well, his definition of future and mine are VERY different! He meant sometime at the end of this month to mid-November sometime. I was thinking sometime next year! The scary part is he needs to find a surgeon willing to do the surgery. It is a complicated one since I want him to have them get as much cancer out of me as he can!
He also said that he was pretty sure I just have a virus. So we are still on for chemo tomorrow. Thankfully!!! He did say that it will be a double bummer because I will be feeling sick from the chemo and my head cold.
As always, keep praying, God is listening!
He also said that he was pretty sure I just have a virus. So we are still on for chemo tomorrow. Thankfully!!! He did say that it will be a double bummer because I will be feeling sick from the chemo and my head cold.
As always, keep praying, God is listening!
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Sickness has hit the Adamik family!!
So, with all the hand washing and sanitizing I have been doing, it didn't stop me from getting the dreaded cough and cold my kids brought home from school!! So here I wait wondering if they are going to go ahead with chemo on Tuesday or if they are going to put it off! Please pray that my blood work comes back good enough to go ahead with the chemo. I schedule my life around chemo and how I will be feeling, so if they put it off it is really going to throw a wrench in my next couple of weeks!!
Other than the kids and I getting sick, everything has been pretty normal. The boys started Cubs
Scouts, which I am pretty sure Jon got roped into to being the pack leader! Jonny is playing Soccer and his team is undefeated! I sure love watching him play. He has a constant smile on his face at all times while he is on the field! We are doing all we can to make sure the kids have as normal life as possible. We are in close contact with their teachers and school to make sure we are not missing signs of depression, anger, etc... We are willing to put them in counseling, but also don't want to put them in unnecessarily. They seem to be doing very well, all things considered.
We are having a garage sale on Saturday to get rid of, (or down size) our storage unit. We are really falling behind on the medical bills. We need to come up with around $3000, as of today! Those bills pile up faster than anything I have seen. I don't know anyone who could afford Cancer. So we are praying we make some money to get rid of some of the bills. Well, thats all I have for now! As always, keep praying, God is listening!!!
Other than the kids and I getting sick, everything has been pretty normal. The boys started Cubs
Scouts, which I am pretty sure Jon got roped into to being the pack leader! Jonny is playing Soccer and his team is undefeated! I sure love watching him play. He has a constant smile on his face at all times while he is on the field! We are doing all we can to make sure the kids have as normal life as possible. We are in close contact with their teachers and school to make sure we are not missing signs of depression, anger, etc... We are willing to put them in counseling, but also don't want to put them in unnecessarily. They seem to be doing very well, all things considered.
We are having a garage sale on Saturday to get rid of, (or down size) our storage unit. We are really falling behind on the medical bills. We need to come up with around $3000, as of today! Those bills pile up faster than anything I have seen. I don't know anyone who could afford Cancer. So we are praying we make some money to get rid of some of the bills. Well, thats all I have for now! As always, keep praying, God is listening!!!
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
SAVE THE DATE!!!!
My brother and his friend will be putting on a fundraiser on Saturday, October 15th. It is a bike ride in Huntington Beach! We need all the participants we can get! I will have more info soon and post it as soon as I get it! Thanks!!
Another chemo week!
Sept 6th~ Today I had my regular doctor appt with the oncologist physicians assistant. It was pretty routine except they let me know I would not be going on the extra chemo drug, Avastan (I think this is the spelling), like they wanted me to. This drug would cause extra bleeding, like nose bleeds and things like that. But, they told me that my tumors were too fragile and would end up bleeding too much. I was torn by this, because I have heard this is the chemo that is a "wonder drug" as the PA described it. But, I am sick of chemo already and don't want more drugs running through me. Already, as soon as I get my chemo out, I am dreading the next time. They said this was normal, but sometimes I actually get sick to my stomach thinking about it. So please pray for God's will to be done with the Avastan. If it will heal me, pray my tumors toughen up!!!! I just want to be healed so badly and back to my regular life with my husband and kids. When I got home, my family friend Dave, came to uplift me and pray with me as he does every Monday before chemo! It feels good to get recharged by prayer and the word before I sit in the chair for hours having poison pumped into me.
Sept 7th~ It was chemo day. They added more Benedryl and Steroids to my cocktail because my tongue was going numb after chemo and I was feeling sick during the last 30 minutes of chemo. So I ended up conking out during chemo from the Benedryl. I felt weird after it was over, just worn out, like I needed to lay down for a couple of days! I got leg cramps that night and really whiny! YES!! I get very emotional after chemo, sometimes for days! LOL!! Sometimes, I want to stamp my feet and cry and say, "WHY ME??" But usually just Jon sees that side of me!
Sept 9th~ nothing new today! Just got my chemo out and went shopping afterward! I feel so free when I get my chemo out! But, for some reason, I am still feeling a little off from chemo. It took me until today (september 13th) to write this post because I am just feeling weird from chemo still! I can function, but I am not feeling normal. I just can't get comfortable. I have not been sleeping well either! I think it all goes together!
Keep me and my family in your prayers as always! God will heal me! Just in His time, not mine! If it were my time, I would be healed already! LOL!!
Sept 7th~ It was chemo day. They added more Benedryl and Steroids to my cocktail because my tongue was going numb after chemo and I was feeling sick during the last 30 minutes of chemo. So I ended up conking out during chemo from the Benedryl. I felt weird after it was over, just worn out, like I needed to lay down for a couple of days! I got leg cramps that night and really whiny! YES!! I get very emotional after chemo, sometimes for days! LOL!! Sometimes, I want to stamp my feet and cry and say, "WHY ME??" But usually just Jon sees that side of me!
Sept 9th~ nothing new today! Just got my chemo out and went shopping afterward! I feel so free when I get my chemo out! But, for some reason, I am still feeling a little off from chemo. It took me until today (september 13th) to write this post because I am just feeling weird from chemo still! I can function, but I am not feeling normal. I just can't get comfortable. I have not been sleeping well either! I think it all goes together!
Keep me and my family in your prayers as always! God will heal me! Just in His time, not mine! If it were my time, I would be healed already! LOL!!
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